//ok but You know what's super duper fun? 

Realizing you’re going to be turning 21 and you never planned that far ahead for youreself and you’re exactly how you thought you’d be a total failure who hasn’t graduated and have gotten nowhere in life and are miserable where you’re at but you’re afraid that if it gets better you won’t know how to live because you’re so damn used to things always going wrong and now you’re just laughing at how damn funny it is

You’ve lost connection with friends and even if you talk it doesnt feel like you’re still friends and that you’ll soon be replaced and feel like EVERYONE is just tired of dealing with you

  YOU are tired of dealing with you and everything sucks and you just wanna sleep for 100 years

You don’t even want to be told it’s ok or that it’ll get better because no. you don’t want that for whatever reason because you’re an idiot and now you just want to get by,you want to get through it just taking it a day at a time in that dreary haze of the same old thing. and you’re probably just going to ignore everything and just keep going along with it.